I have been joking all week to my co-workers that I am pretty sure I am a "redneck" becasue I am excited to go on "vacation" to Grand Forks North Dakota! Yep thats right... However it is away from here and it is with my family so that qualifies as a vacation right?!
I have been running like a chicken with my head cut off these past few weeks and I am needing a change. I am in need of peace, quiet, and serenity. Is that really too much to ask? I have little tolerance for any sort of shenaggans. I am finding my self short with myself, now that is bad. I can't imagine what that lady thought that was sitting next to me at the stop light tonight on my way home from work... I was busy yelling at myself for odd and ends that didn't get done today and those that know me, know that I am animated when I talk. After a few seconds of yelling I had the feeling I was being watched so I looked to my left and yep, I was being watched by the lady in the car next to me. I quickly pretended that I was talking on a headset peice for my cell phone... right cause I own one of those. :) (it was that or yell at her...I think I made the better choice)
Life is much to short to be this stressed out by the little things. Everyday at work I am reminded that my life is a walk in the park compared to many others. I have my health, my family, and many other things that some others do not.
My monkey has been sick the last 3 days. Now by sick I mean she had a pretty good case of the vomits and the loose "muddy" roads but nothing serious. I was quickly reminded by a close friend last night that Bella being sick is really not "bad" and that it could be worse. I made a couple meals for a family last night whose 3 year old had a brain tumor removed a week ago. She is beautiful and is the same age as my Bella. As we were shopping for ingredients at Coborns last night I was explaining to Bella why we were going to make meals to help this girls mom and dad. I told her that we were going to make meals so this girls mom and dad could focus on her and not worry about little things like making supper. Bella quickly got the hang of this and was throwing things in the cart. As we passed the fruit snack isle Bella stopped dead in her tracks and stood infront of the bringht pink My Little Pony fruit snacks. She tossed a box into our cart, looked up at me with the cutest eyes and said "mama every girl like me loves pony snacks." As we rounded the other isles she continues to add things to the cart that "every girl" has to have. At this point I was reflecting...Looking at her eagerly throwing in Mac N Cheese and Teddy Grams made me think... I hope my Bella is learning life lessons that took me years to learn. I hope she is learning that being nice to others in need is not only nice but neccesary. I hope that she is learning that doing something nice doesn't need repayment. I hope that she is learning that people need people. I hope she feels as good as I do when I "pay it forward." It was not that long ago that we were in need of help and everyone stepped up to help us. I find such joy in returning the "nice-ities." When those hazel money eyes looked at me and said "mama I am sick like that little girl." I couldn't help but get teary. (even though it was her way of making a plea for the Sponge Bob Mac N cheese.) It was hard to choke out the words no you are not sick like her but I did. I felt selfish for being thankful I wasn't agreeing with her but in the same breath I felt saddened for her parents that were faced with the emotions and strain this "sickness" has created. It made me thankful that I was only dealing with the vomits and the "muddy" roads. I was ever so quickly reminded that my life could be worse, and that I have it good. I ask that you all put your "crisis" in daily life into persective and always rememebr it could be worse. Pray for healing and strength for this family. God will guide them I am sure but a little extra never hurts.
I am a bit of a Facebook junkie and tonigth one of my close friends had a post that I couldn't help but borrow. When I read it it about pee'd my pants laughing. Sometimes it takes the hard core truth to bring things back to reality and she hit it right on the nose with this one... It helped me focus on what is truly an "issue" and what I really need to just get over.
